I don't know about you, but when I'm not feeling good my sin really comes out. I am less patient with my family and even the little things seem huge in the moment.
Take for example this morning. After leaving Hannah alone with a bowl of yogurt a little too long, with only Suzi as a witness, I come back in the kitchen to find it on the ground, in her hair, everywhere. Who knows why? Maybe because she is one of the sickies, but also maybe because she just didn't want strawberry yogurt for breakfast this morning and that was her way of telling me. So, after I cleaned the kitchen I scooped her up and put her in the shower.
Hannah being Hannah and balance not being her strong suit she slipped multiple times in the shower. This led to both of us becoming a little frustrated. One because I feel like a 2.5 year old should be able to catch her balance in the shower and two since her processor was off she could not hear any of my instructions.
I hate when I feel this way. I hate when I get frustrated at things Hannah does that she cannot help and probably would rather do better. I want to set Hannah up for success. Be it a slip-free bath time or not tripping down the stairs or the ability to communicate clearly with her.
After the morning calmed down, Suzi was napping and Hannah was otherwise entertained I sat down to listen to last Sunday's sermon on courage that I had missed.

Again, when I start to doubt the Lord about my daughter's ability, He sweetly shows me how much she can do. And gives me another glimpse into the person he created her to be.

I don't like that my daughter caught a virus that limits her ability and immediately put her in the special needs category. But I do know He actively works all things (even the schemes of the devil) for our good and his glory.
I look forward to witnessing what the Lord will do with her life and pray that I will hold her with an open hand (and not get in the way!)
So, even when I am frustrated that my daughter may not be where others are who are her age, I take courage in the fact that the Lord is using her life for her good and his glory.
And all I have to do is cheer her on.