Good Father, Good Fall

Many of you have probably heard the song "Good Good Father" sung by Chris Tomlin.

Every time I hear it I cry. He is so good. I look back on where we were a year ago...

No sleep. Colicky child. 

No idea our child had hearing loss or CMV. 

Struggling as we added another child to our family, but thankful at the same time. 

and as I look back I'm amazed at His goodness. 

Believe me when I say the grief is still fresh. I think back to Thanksgiving 2014 and never want to re-live those days. I remember crying so much my head hurt, arguing with Keith about what we should have done. 

What the doctors didn't do. 

And feeling very alone. 

I don't know when those days will fade from my memory, but I want to remain faithful even if they don't. I want my kids to read this blog in 20 or so years and see all that God did in our family through the addition of Hannah. 

This year things are brighter. Our girl is progressing, slowly, but still progressing. 

I think we've accepted it, for the most part, and are trying to move on to a new normal. 

Things are different, friends are different and the way we look at life is different. Many people in our life have continued to come around us, pray for us and encourage us (especially from afar). But the special needs title is a lot for some so a few friendships have been lost and that's okay. 

We are thankful that we do believe in and serve a good, good father who is perfect in all of His ways. It's a love undeniable with peace that is unexplainable. 

Peace may still be hard to feel all the time but I know He gives it to me lavishly. 

And for that I'm thankful. 

"Be thankful in all circumstances, 

for this is God's will 

for you who belong to 

Christ Jesus."

I Thessalonians 5:18