I love worship, especially worship music. I think the Lord uses it to speak to me and help me to connect with Him when my words fail.
As the weeks become shorter between "Richards party of 3" and "a family of 4" I have started really thinking about how much grace the Lord has for me. For those of you out there with multiple kids (or heck only one) you know the joy, transition, stress a new life can bring to your household. Once you were getting 8 hours of sleep and now you may be getting 3 at a time, your house used to be quiet and you used to be able to focus on what your spouse was saying when he/she walked in the door, but now it's all a blur.
I know these things are all part of the newborn package, but as these weeks go by I am getting a little weepy at the thought of Eli not being my only child anymore. Don't get me wrong I am so thankful for this new life, but things are bound to change. He is likely to feel neglected, act out, have meltdowns, not sleep as well, etc. But I am asking the Lord to help me focus on all that he "gets" to do.
He gets to be a big brother, he gets to love this little girl like only a brother can. He gets to teach her things that I can't and learn (yes learn) that he is not the only one we wait on around here. I am so excited to see their relationship blossom in time and see his love for his sister and of course her love and desire to look up to him.
The following song by Matt Redman, "Your Grace Finds Me" is one I always turn up when it comes on in the car and the first song that I heard when leaving the hospital after finding out we were expecting a girl. It is relevant to anyone's life and allows me, if only for a second, to remember just how much grace the Lord pours out on my life daily. Lord, please help me to remember this clearly in the coming weeks and months.
It's there in the newborn cry
It's there in the light of every sunrise
It's there in the shadows of this light
Your great grace
It's there on the mountaintop
It's there in the everyday and the mundane
There in the sorrow and the dancing
Your great grace
Oh, such grace
From the creation to the cross
Then from the cross into eternity
Your grace finds me
Yes, your grace finds me
It's there on a wedding day
There in the weeping by the graveside
There in the very breath we breathe
Your great grace
Same for the rich and poor
Same for the saint and for the sinner
Enough for this whole wide world
Your great grace
Oh, such grace
From the creation to the cross
Then from the cross into eternity
Your grace finds me
Yes, Your grace finds me
There in the darkest night of the soul
There in the sweetest songs of victory
Your grace finds me
Yes, Your grace finds me
Your great grace, Oh such grace.