Tuesday, June 30, 2015

CMV Awareness Month

June is CMV awareness month. 

My newsfeed is flooded daily with different facts about the virus, different states that are fighting legislation to add CMV testing to the newborn screen. Friends and family forward me articles about CMV, books, etc. it's all good and I'm learning a ton.

But sometimes I think back to June 2014. When I was pregnant and ignorant. 

When I was decorating my soon-to-come 1st daughter's room and day dreaming about what her life would be like. 

This was definitely not in my dreams. 

Fast forward 1 year and we are filled to the brim with doctor and therapy appointments. We have learned more over the last 6 months about CMV, early intervention and all the acronyms that go with it to fill a book. 

This is not what I expected my life to be like. 

But this is my life. 

And honestly Hannah brings so much joy to it. She is the sparkle to my day and her smile melts me every time. 

She's worth all the energy put forth, even if I wish things were different. 

The following list are facts and data about CMV. Be aware you may find some things on the list shocking. I wanted to post this on the last day of June so that everyone can learn more. Also, if you know a friend who is pregnant or wants to be please forward this to her. You never know who you may help. 

Creating Awareness about CMV--some things you should know. 

1. Pregnant women should talk with their OBGYN about CMV.

2. Each year 30,000 babies (1 in 150) are born with congenital CMV. 

3. CMV is found in bodily fluids including blood, urine, saliva and tears. 

4. There is currently no vaccine. In 1999, the government ranked a CMV vaccine as top priority for research and industry.

5. Pregnant women are more likely to get CMV if they have young children at home.

6. CMV disabilities can be present at birth or appear later in life. 

7. Every hour CMV permanently disables a child. 

8. Only 13% of women in the US have heard of CMV. 

9. Each year CMV will be the cause of death for 400 babies and children in the US. 

10. Congenital CMV affects more babies than all current newborn screening conditions combined. 

11. Most OBs do not discuss CMV or CMV prevention with their patients, although recommended by the CDC and ACOG. 

12. CMV is the most common virus transmitted from a pregnant woman to her baby. 

13. Women who interact with babies and young children should be educated on CMV. 

14. Research has shown a link between CMV and miscarriage. 

15. Newborn CMV screening has significant potential for improving children's outcomes. 

16. CMV is the leading non-genetic cause of hearing loss in children. 

17. Up to 70% of children between 1-3 in daycare settings may have CMV. 

18. Most infants born with congenital CMV appear healthy at birth. 

19. Congenital CMV causes more disabilities than Down syndrome, fetal alcohol syndrome, spina bifida, and pediatric HIV/AIDS

20. CMV is the leading cause of Cerebral palsy in children. 

21. In 1993, only 3% of babies were screened for hearing loss. By 2001, 90% of babies were screened. In 2015 less than 1% are screened for CMV. By 2020 every baby should be. 

22. In 2013, one state passed a law requiring CMV education and testing. In 2014, two states proposed laws and in 2015, five states proposed laws. Is your state next?




Thursday, June 18, 2015

Brave

She was brave. 


But I think she felt tricked. 

My heart probably hurt more than hers, but we both made it through. 

After the evaluation the doctor noticed her tongue was tight as well and that was probably the reason for her gagging on some chunky foods. So, 2 cuts. 

She will now have to learn how to use her tongue and lip in new ways. This will mean a little more therapy and stretching, but we do pray that this procedure will make a great difference. 

She's now napping and all is well. 

Thanks for your continued prayers. 

We are ready for the weekend!

"Weeping may last through the night, 
but joy comes with the morning."
Psalm 30:5

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

And This.

Recently, Hannah has started eating more and more solid foods and since she won't take a bottle, I've upped her food intake because I don't think she's getting enough milk.

Since this is typical with lots of kids we just thought it was Hannah. 

Well, today we visited a feeding therapist and she noticed Hannah has an upper lip tie. This may be preventing her from feeding from a bottle and ultimately getting enough food. Down the road it could make it harder for her to make certain sounds, eat properly and she would more than likely have a gap between her front teeth. 

So, we have an appointment Thursday at 10am for an evaluation and possibly a cut. 

I'm praying that this will make difference. 

I'm praying this won't be too traumatic for her (or me). 

Hannah is already SO tired of being poked and prodded, she seems to tense up with every new specialist that comes her way. Poor thing. 

As I've said before, this is just another example of laying her life in The Lord's hands. 


It is Well--Bethel Music

"Grander earth has quaked before
Moved by the sound of His voice
Seas that are shaken and stirred
Can be calmed and broken for my regard

Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
Through it all, through it all
It is well
Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
It is well with me

Far be it from me to not believe
Even when my eyes can't see
And this mountain that's in front of me
Will be thrown into the midst of the sea



Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
Through it all, through it all
It is well

So let go my soul and trust in Him
The waves and wind still know His name"

It is well with me. 


Saturday, June 6, 2015

Over and Done.

This Sunday, June 7th, marks 6 months of Hannah being treated for CMV on anti-viral medication.

6 months of hearing the word Cytomegalovirus (CMV)

6 months of a diagnosis. 

6 months of hearing aids. 

6 months of therapy. 

6 months of multiple doctors appointments and insurance claims. 

Six months. 

This week I have been thinking a lot about how our lives looked then and how our lives look now. A lot of the emotions from those early weeks after the diagnosis have resurfaced.  The initial grief that set in has given way to more answers about the virus and encouraging doctors appointments. 

Getting in so quickly with an infectious diseases doctor was a blessing. This team of doctors and nurses helped to answer a lot of questions and give us hope. 

Nurse T that could always make Hannah smile. 

I am glad we don't have to drive downtown for an appointment anymore, but I will miss our monthly visits. Just a chance to talk about all that Hannah is doing and simply have another set of eyes evaluate her on a regular basis. 

NP Kristie. A blessing. She always took plenty of time with us & loved seeing Hannah. 

But now that's over and done. 

On June 8th I will not give Hannah her medicine. 

Instead I will pray that the virus remains dormant and does not effect Hannah's body anymore. I will pray, as many of you have been these last 6 months, that there will not be any lasting problems with her body outside of the hearing loss and Hannah can live a normal life. 

This is not easy to do, but it's necessary. 

To continually lay my plans for Hannah and her health in The Lord's hands. 

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for praying for Hannah. Thank you for remembering her and bringing her needs before the Father. You have carried us these last 6 months and I know no diagnosis can account for the work of grace in a person's life. 

So, {deep breath}, we are done with infectious diseases.  But everything else remains the same. We are still plugging along at therapy and still taking a trip to Cincinnati Children's every 6 months. We are still visiting the audiologist 2 times a month for ear molds and hearing tests. 

Yes, I wish we were done with everything and these things wouldn't interrupt our life anymore. But, after 6 months I think I've resided to that fact that this is our life. It's hard for me to imagine what  it would be like to not have so many appointments and a girl who needs a little extra help. And for my own sanity I don't let my mind go there anymore. 

I focus on what is. And what is, is pretty great. 


So, as we say goodbye to the University of Louisville pediatric infectious diseases office (say that 5 times fast) we say hello to the next chapter on the Hannah journey. I don't know about you, but I'm looking forward to it. 

For those prayer warriors out there who have been praying for Hannah and don't want to stop--here are a few updates I'd love for you to pray for (+ anything else you think of). 

1. Pray The Lord will strengthen Hannah's left side. It is weaker because of the CMV and that makes it hard for her to sit and keep her balance. 

2. Pray Keith & I will have wisdom about next steps with Hannah's hearing. If she becomes a candidate, Hannah could get cochlear implants within the next 6 months. 

3. Pray the Lord will do great things in Hannah's life. 

'Call to me 
and I will answer you 
and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.'
Jeremiah 33:3

Thank you. 




Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Potty Training

Now, let me start off the post by saying, No, Eli is not potty trained. We're still in process. And even though all you seasoned Moms say 'they won't go to kindergarten in diapers' I'm starting to wonder.

I know, I should have started earlier, but I did have another child. With colic. And other issues. Who only wanted to be held, etc, etc. 

I feel like we're finally getting into a routine (wait, did I say that out loud?) and with summer coming it's time to really dig our heels in and master this thing. 

If only Eli would get on the same page.

I keep wondering what potty training is doing for our relationship.  (Eli's and mine).

Will this bond us any closer?
Will it give me more patience with him?
Funny antidotes to share with other mom friends?

I'm not sure what will come out of it, more than my child will be allowed to enter school (in a couple of years), but as with everything else it is another sign that he's growing up.

I'm trying to linger longer on the phases of his childhood.

In 5 or 10 years I am sure we will have moved on to more complex worries and stresses and thinking back on the days when he wanted me to sing "just one more song" at bedtime will be long gone.

He is a sweet, caring, sensitive and strong-willed 3 year old.

He keeps me on my toes that's for sure.  And even though sometimes he can elevate my heart rate higher than is probably normal, I am so thankful for this life.

Thankful for the opportunity to be his Mama and thankful that my house is loud, messy and well lived in.

So, someday (hopefully not in the too distant future) he will be potty trained and able to walk beside me without running off and I will fondly look back on these hard days.




"Every good and Perfect gift is from above.
coming down from the Father of lights,
who does not change like shifting shadows."
James 1:17